An old Lady

I don’t know where it changed…

The day before yesterday I was a teenager, and just yesterday I was a twenty something girl fully loaded with 100% pure energy that just couldn’t get tired: Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, party all the way!! Along with a fulltime work and friends and yet so naive I was, to consider that better times were still to come...but how naive was I? Those were the best times!!!

Today I find myself confused; most of my friends got married, but why? Weren’t they better before that? Why the rush? The only thing they caused was to rushed people that were not in a hurry and just because of that, now I am struggling myself! .  With not a single desire to get married now, and the few handful of guys that are still on the market are pushing me to get married right away...grrr! Why the f@k&g! rush?!

Who would say that before even turning 30, all the people would think that the last train is almost departing and according to them, I have to rush if I still want to get on it...is it true? Why the rush if they will get divorced in 5 years, 10 at the most, why they had to put off they youth for later, later when they don’t have it any more.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t feel lonely anymore, now I have company and if I didn’t have him, I would have another one.

The problem is not being alone, the problem is to find the perfect match, when I see all the people that are getting married omg! They look so happy in those pictures, like if that was the best stuff on earth, so I am wondering, should I get married just now? Or should I wait until I can reflect the same ultimate happiness feeling, which they seem to have just before the wedding. (Apparently that feeling doesn’t last long…three months, is what they say…(Again, Why to get married just now?!))

I was all confused, thinking about Abed when I went to a Party, It was a 40 year anniversary, of a guy that felt depressed because he was turning 40. omg! (I thought…)” If I am turning 30 and I feel depressed, this guy must not be doing fine though. “

During the party I met with Cointa again, so I started talking to her, it was amazing…It was like a year that I didn’t talk to her. And now I am chit chatting with her again…and what I like about her is that she is an old lady and she can provide me with a lot of advice, for example she was telling me that I should get a guy just if I wanted, she told me at your age most of the people will try to push you to get any guy, just something, but you shouldn’t surrender just now, should need to get married just when you feel you are ready and if you turn 40 and still you don’t want to get marry then don’t  get marry, it means that you are better off this way.

And I told her that I had many boyfriends before but for some reason they don’t seem to please me just the way other girls seems to be pleased and that I haven’t reach that feeling they show just before getting married, is there something wrong with me? I said and then Cointa replied NO!, There is nothing wrong you are hanging out with the wrong guy. And what I liked the most is that she gave me hope, opposite to all the other people, she told me you don’t worry when they right guy comes you will be as happy as the other girls are, you will see, just wait, your time is not yet due!

And remember if a guy proposes you and you have to think about it for a minute…then that guys is not the right one for you!